Im desperate to be one of the top 10 exisitin advisers in PTO. Coming in as No. 11 in position is as good as failing ur exam by 1 mark. I'll rather be No. 20 den No. 11. I wan to end Yr 2008 wif wonderful memories. I dun understand why cant my own bf be someone encouraging. When Im running so hard for production, why must u spread negative thoughts when I nid encouragement frm sumone I luv the most? Cant u sense that Im fucking stress over the slight production difference between position 9- position 13? Do u understand the fact that Once 2008 is over, my production summary will be reset to Zero. Sometimes, I doubt..Have you ever been supportive of my career. I work so hard to achieve Starclub dis and tt, do u noe the reason y? Its not jus cos of the incentive trip. Its beyond that. Im utterly disappointed.

2008 has been a tough yr. I run like mad in Feb to hit Starclub. I hit Qc within 6mths & Secure my 1st tix 2 Osaka with hard wrk n sweat. I den do crazy thin 2 hit my 2nd tix to Osaka by quaifyin for Prud A&H Challenge. Do u tink all dis cum easily. U r not deserved to b mention when I start to pen my article for the book.

Iam sad.